Hola

Wow, how time just gets away from you! I'm so ready for a vacation. So, last night was a pretty awesome rain, thunder and lightening storm! It was so amazing! Today, around town, it looks like a freaking tornado came through, with all the debris and what not.

So, I'm still in the process of buying a freaking house. How scary is that? I'm a little freaked out. All on my own. All the numbers adding up and not having a job, Ka-Ray-Z! I don't know if the deal is going to go through or not. Everyone keeps telling me that everything will work out. I suppose we shall see.

I'm so tired all of the time. I wounder if it could be the lack of me not doing anything. I really need to get on the ball and find some type of job to keep me busy. I'm going to go crazy! I've been throwing around the thought of going back overseas. I think I'm comfortable there and the pay is great. It would be just because I felt like doing it and not that I had to, so that would make it a lot better too, this time around, I think. I just don't think I'd do well in the "civilian" work place. ??? I've thought about going to school too, but then for what? A CNA, LPN, RN, Radiology Tech, what? If only the lotto would call out my numbers. LOL :-) I know I'm supposed to win it, I just have to start playing! LOL

I've made some new friends, which is always a good thing. I'm seeing a great guy. I can see it lasting a very long time, but there's no telling with me. I don't think anyone can really handle me and the way that I am. I don't know what it is about me that guys like, but it seems like they just like me. ??? I'm nothing special in bed, I don't go South and I pretty much just lay there! LOL Man that's almost sad to admit. So, what is it?

I got a new camera and it's still pretty new, considering I've only used it once! I got some filters and I'd really like to start using it, a lot! I just can't seem to find the energy or motivation. A cousin of mine asked me to do her pregnancy pictures, which I've never done before, so what do I do? She offered to pay, but how could you charge a family member for something like that? I told her to just teach me some photography stuff or camera stuff and we'd call it even. :-)

I'm 30 and I don't know what I want to do with my life!