Interviews

Interviews scare me! Duh, why should they, I know, but they just do! I just get all nervous. I mean, I know the worst that could happen is just them telling me that they're not going to hire me, and that's not going to kill me. I think it has something to do with being declined. Yeah, that's it. We'll leave it there.

So, this morning I had an "interview" with AT&T. It was actually fun and didn't make me all that nervous. LOL We just had to listen to some information and then fill out an app on their computer and then answer some questions about situations how we'd handle them and then had to do a simulated work station type of thing in a call center! When you got finished, the hiring manager called you into her office to tell you how you did. When I enter the office, she tells me that I did awesome on the simulation and we talk and then she asks me to come back for yet another "interview" on Friday! This one is going to be one on one with a lady who will decide if she wants me to work for her or not...BRING ON THE NERVOUSNESS! :-) I'm just going to go in there and be me, tell them what they want to hear, and just be honest. If all else fails, I'm sure I could land a position at 7Eleven!

Afterwords I went and had lunch with my cousin Christina. It was a pretty awesome afternoon/morning!

I have decided to give up on cleaning my beautiful car too! :-( It just doesn't stay clean for more than a day! I avoid shit on the streets and do all in my power to keep him clean, but when it comes down to it, it's all useless!

Hmmmm....

Well, I'm now in my apartment at Regency Tower in downtown OKC. It's great being out "on my own", but it makes me a little nerve wracked! Everyone does it all the time, I guess it just freaks me out not being able to make it.

The not smoking thing isn't go so well. This year I've smoked three times already. Ugh, why am I so weak! :-(

I'm trying to find a job, but I wanted to stop by here first.

:-)

Still here, just not in the mood to write. :-)

Check-In

Just wanted to check in, I'm still here, tired as all hell, will write later.

The Holidays

Hey there. The holidays are an amazing time, especially for close friends and family! You get the chance to see how blessed you are. With me, it's simply amazing. If you know me at all, you know that I'm really family oriented, and that I have a huge family! I'm very close with them and currently live with them as well. That all will change come December 29th, 2009. It's certainly going to be some transition! I'm so used to seeing them every day and being an every day part of my babies lives. What's going to change?

Today I haven't done much of anything except for wrapping more presents, and I'm still not done! The first couple are always fun and the outcome is amazing, but as they go on, it gets boring! LOL I'm still trucking along though.

I did go meet my ex brother in law up in the city to pick up my nephew and cousin, they just got back from skiing in New Mexico. I heard that they had a really awesome time.

Other than all that, not a whole lot going on. I had planned on going up to the city to do some special shopping and buy a gun, but that all changed when my sister asked me to meet up and pick up my nephew. I suppose that I could do that tomorrow? I however, shouldn't be spending any money, seeing as how I have no job and have heard nothing from the places that I've applied. What do I do now? Fast food? I don't think so, and not that it's beneath me or anything, it's just not me.

I guess that I'm going to go now, some more beer to drink and presents to wrap!

The Webs We Weave

Have you ever thought about the things that you do or have done that come back to bite you in the ass? Just wondering. Have you ever thought about why it was that you did what you did or do what you do? I do that all the time. A lot of the time I don't mean it, but I just let it go. :-) Just rambling, nothing in particular going on.

Another day down. Ugh, I'm so freaking bored and tired! I have still yet to hear about a job from the apps that I have filled out. What's the next step? Call and check up on them? I'm really just wanting something, anything, with little responsibility! :-) I'll be the first to admit that I'm freaking lazy, except for when it comes to designing something or doing photo editing! ;-)

Christmas is upon us, and yet once again I'll be so happy to have it done and over with. The last couple of years when I'm asked what I want for Christmas, I simply say, "Nothing, I'm good", and I mean it, but no one every listens, so each year I get more stuff to have to find a place for! :-D

Going to jet for now, ciao.

Not Enough Hours In The Day

So, I'm about to begin yet another chapter in my life! I know before that I said that I was going to try and get back on here more often, but as you can see that hasn't happened. There aren't enough hours in the freaking day!

I wouldn't sleep if I didn't have to. Sleeping is so overrated!

I am going to pick this up again though. It may not be in the correct order though, because I'm not going to write step by step, but just as it comes to me. Make sense? So, I could blog about a couple of different things, which all happened on the same day, but will have different blogs! LOL I lose you yet? Damn! Nah, just kidding.

Currently, I'm itchy and it's driving me crazy! Cortizone - 10 isn't helping either! Ugh! What the hell is it?

So, this morning, I get a text from my cousin JJ, they are at Mercy hospital, Breezy is about to give birth to Zane! It's their first child, I'm really excited for them. I was going to try and go up and be there, but I'm just too freaking tired at the moment! You see, I haven't slept a wink all night and it's now 0723!

So, what do you think? Is this going to work?

Me? Dating a new guy. Getting an apartment in downtown OKC, finally! Looking for a job (any job)! Have a new nephew on the way (due date of the 20th of Dec.). Finished Christmas shopping, minus one gift! Wanting to apply and attend Rose State College! Just basically living life one day at a time!

Wow

Wow, what a new chapter we are already in, in the Life of Jay! So much is going on, and yes I'm trying to keep up with this, but I'm really busy or just not in the mood to write. I know, what's up with that? I will try to make more of an effort, I promise.

I'm alive, I'm healthy (sort of), and I'm SUPER HAPPY! :-)

What It Is

Man, will it ever end, me being so busy and having to make up my mind at every turn? I'm seriously thinking about taking a job again with my previous company. They called me yesterday out of the blue to make sure that I knew they were keeping my security clearance up to date and active. They told me that they had something domestic as well as oconus, so I guess I just have to make up my mind. :)

Soccer practices have started and the first game is this coming Sunday! :) I'm so tired, just dealing with all the kid stuff, but I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world! :) Still continuing to constantly being on the move! :)

I'm still freaking tired and still have to do this and do that. What's the end product going to be like?

I'm closing on the house on the 14th, of September at 1300! I'm ready to get all that over with! I don't think that I'll ever know myself or feel it, if I made the right choice or not. :)

We shall see.

Hola

Wow, how time just gets away from you! I'm so ready for a vacation. So, last night was a pretty awesome rain, thunder and lightening storm! It was so amazing! Today, around town, it looks like a freaking tornado came through, with all the debris and what not.

So, I'm still in the process of buying a freaking house. How scary is that? I'm a little freaked out. All on my own. All the numbers adding up and not having a job, Ka-Ray-Z! I don't know if the deal is going to go through or not. Everyone keeps telling me that everything will work out. I suppose we shall see.

I'm so tired all of the time. I wounder if it could be the lack of me not doing anything. I really need to get on the ball and find some type of job to keep me busy. I'm going to go crazy! I've been throwing around the thought of going back overseas. I think I'm comfortable there and the pay is great. It would be just because I felt like doing it and not that I had to, so that would make it a lot better too, this time around, I think. I just don't think I'd do well in the "civilian" work place. ??? I've thought about going to school too, but then for what? A CNA, LPN, RN, Radiology Tech, what? If only the lotto would call out my numbers. LOL :-) I know I'm supposed to win it, I just have to start playing! LOL

I've made some new friends, which is always a good thing. I'm seeing a great guy. I can see it lasting a very long time, but there's no telling with me. I don't think anyone can really handle me and the way that I am. I don't know what it is about me that guys like, but it seems like they just like me. ??? I'm nothing special in bed, I don't go South and I pretty much just lay there! LOL Man that's almost sad to admit. So, what is it?

I got a new camera and it's still pretty new, considering I've only used it once! I got some filters and I'd really like to start using it, a lot! I just can't seem to find the energy or motivation. A cousin of mine asked me to do her pregnancy pictures, which I've never done before, so what do I do? She offered to pay, but how could you charge a family member for something like that? I told her to just teach me some photography stuff or camera stuff and we'd call it even. :-)

I'm 30 and I don't know what I want to do with my life!