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Wow, how time just gets away from you! I'm so ready for a vacation. So, last night was a pretty awesome rain, thunder and lightening storm! It was so amazing! Today, around town, it looks like a freaking tornado came through, with all the debris and what not.

So, I'm still in the process of buying a freaking house. How scary is that? I'm a little freaked out. All on my own. All the numbers adding up and not having a job, Ka-Ray-Z! I don't know if the deal is going to go through or not. Everyone keeps telling me that everything will work out. I suppose we shall see.

I'm so tired all of the time. I wounder if it could be the lack of me not doing anything. I really need to get on the ball and find some type of job to keep me busy. I'm going to go crazy! I've been throwing around the thought of going back overseas. I think I'm comfortable there and the pay is great. It would be just because I felt like doing it and not that I had to, so that would make it a lot better too, this time around, I think. I just don't think I'd do well in the "civilian" work place. ??? I've thought about going to school too, but then for what? A CNA, LPN, RN, Radiology Tech, what? If only the lotto would call out my numbers. LOL :-) I know I'm supposed to win it, I just have to start playing! LOL

I've made some new friends, which is always a good thing. I'm seeing a great guy. I can see it lasting a very long time, but there's no telling with me. I don't think anyone can really handle me and the way that I am. I don't know what it is about me that guys like, but it seems like they just like me. ??? I'm nothing special in bed, I don't go South and I pretty much just lay there! LOL Man that's almost sad to admit. So, what is it?

I got a new camera and it's still pretty new, considering I've only used it once! I got some filters and I'd really like to start using it, a lot! I just can't seem to find the energy or motivation. A cousin of mine asked me to do her pregnancy pictures, which I've never done before, so what do I do? She offered to pay, but how could you charge a family member for something like that? I told her to just teach me some photography stuff or camera stuff and we'd call it even. :-)

I'm 30 and I don't know what I want to do with my life!

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I'm still so freaking tired! I just woke up from a four hour nap, from a crazy ass dream, with a not so proud ending. Ugh! What does all this mean? I need a spa retreat or something, before I end up being committed!

This past weekend was a lot of fun. Friday I went up to OKC to spend the weekend with Jason. Friday we met the guys that he hung out with for Happy Hour at the Phoenix Rising and then headed over to the Boom for a bite to eat. Then we finished having some more drinks there, Craig almost got us escorted out, just by asking a freaking question, nonetheless, then Jason and I headed over to Trav's house to have another drink or two, and then Trav got some "company" so we just left him to it! LOL *wink* Love ya Trav! Saturday, Jason hosted a BBQ for me, so that I could meet his "crew", LOL! It was fun. First we met my sister-in-law in the city to go shopping for some party supplies for my niece's birthday party this Saturday. We made it back to the BBQ, talked, had some drinks, and then Timberlynn invited us over to Jeff's house in Moore to a UFC watch party. We go. :-) It was actually a lot of fun! We chilled there, talked with everyone and made new and more friends. We left there and went over to Eric and Kristin's house, somewhere, and brought in the morning. They invited us to spend the night there, but I was just so tired and wanting Jason's comfortable bed! So, we left. Ugh, thank the stars that was finally over with. Sunday, we didn't do jack shit, we just basically vegged out in front of the t.v. on the couch! I came back home Monday morning after Jason left for work.

Yesterday was Bella's 4th Birthday, but we are celebrating her party on the 18th. My mother and I met Kelly and the babies up in the city at Chuck E. Cheese so that we could hang with Bella on her actual birthday. We found some foam letters to paint for Bella's birthday surprise that my brother is building for her. We came back home, started to paint them. Kelly had things to do. I went to eat with my sister. Kayla and Ryan came down to look at the house they are in the process of buying, we all went over to look at it again with them. Then we headed over to my brothers for some ice cream, then I came home, talked to Jason on the phone and passed out, only to wake up a measly four hours later! Ugh.

I'm So Tired

I'm just so freaking tired! There aren't enough hours in the day or enough of me to go around. I just can't seem to get enough sleep. *smiling* My mind will not shut off. I just want sleep!

Today, I finally got my car title in the mail and went and got my tag. Nice chunk of change. :)

Didn't do a whole lot, went and visited Michael at work, went to visit my grandparents and then went and visited with Marisela. :) Texted and talked to Jason. *smiling*

Going to jet for now, holla!

Something of Nothing

This picture is from my Birthday Bash, the Party Bus. One of our stops was at Laura's house for drinks, food, and games! Pin the Cock on the Stud! LOL Yeah, I traded out the poster, but it's the same! :-D

My dawgs are barking and my head is killing me. So, I've been pondering about my new vehicle. Do I be selfish and go for the Honda Accord Coupe or do I think about the big picture and go for the Chevy Traverse? I like them both and would be happy with either. Ugh, why is this so freaking hard for me! LOL I'm thinking that I should get what I want and spend whatever, I mean, I deserve it, right? I'd like to be practicle too though. Know what I mean? I'm hoping that when the time comes (the weekend of the 26th) it will all fall into place and I'll get what I'm meant to get. :) Now, who can I sucker into taking me around to dealerships that weekend?

So yeah, I went to Syria today, but that's a story to be told at the bar, when I'm drunk and you think I don't know what I'm talking about or just making up a big fat lie! :-D

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Man! Last night I had this dream that I made it back home, but I was so freaking tired. I still went anyway and bought my new car. Well, when I woke the next morning and went out to look at my new baby, it wasn't a Honda Accord Coupe, it was some type of Dodge sports car! Yeah, it still looked nice, but I felt sick and so sad! So, it was a Friday night when I bought it, so Saturday morning my step-dad and I, Richard, rush to take it back to the dealership to exchange it, but they closed at 1500 and we got there just after 1500! So, basically I was stuck with this vehicle! I was so sad! :(

I'm so freaking bored and tired. The picture here, as you can tell from previous photos, is from the Party Bus as well! :)

I've got some more traveling to do tomorrow, possibly. I'll be sure to let you know how it goes and what all I experience. :)

I still haven't gotten a picture of the guys here yet. Basically only because I'm lazy and don't want to drag out my camera and charge the battery. Damn, what does that say about me as a "photographer"? LOL I'm cool, it's all good.

Just a couple more days and I'll be leaving CKV, finally!

So Random

You know, I haven't heard from my family in some time now. Don't you think that's just so random. I mean, here a loved one is, on the opposite side of the world, in a "war zone", and they don't even take the time to e-mail a Hi or Hello. To me, that's just so random. Now, if they need or want something, I can't stop the e-mails. Hmmm...so random.

I currently hear from my friends more than anyone, and ONE in particular would be Marisela. They just bought a house! I can't wait to get back home so that I can go visit and see it. I'm so happy for them. I'm sure she'll put me to work to, but I'll get out of it some way or another! LOL

I'm going to be distant from everyone when I get back as well. I mean, I'm still doing my North America Road Trip, so I'll see whomever during all that, which I can't wait either! Once I get tired of running around, then I'll try and make time for everyone. That's just how the cookie crumbles I suppose. LOL

Today, I actually did some freaking work! I was out in the sun all day and it's fucking HOT! Great, now I have a real good farmers tan going as well as a watch tan! It sucks, but not really a biggie. I'm not impressing anyone.

I still haven't heard yet either when I'll be heading back. I'm not telling anyone either. Everything that you need to know will be here, where I empty my head, so if you should happen to read it here or whatever, then you're going to be above the rest. It's just how I'm rollin' these days! :)

I've been thinking about this Oklahoma City AIDS Walk thing, and I want to do the 5k run that morning of. I wonder if I can get anyone to join me or at least get a group to go out for support and what not. I was also thinking about having t-shirts made, with my design on them for everyone who'd like to join me that morning. It's going to be on Sunday October 11th. So, if you read this and you're interested, leave me a comment or send me an e-mail stating as such! :)

Punch That!

This is a punching bag that I helped my roomie Jay make. It's an old mattress, two sand bags, 90% duct tape roll, three air force straps. Pretty cool huh? He uses it, not me. We were bored one day and he wanted to start some type of exercise. He uses a "real" punching bag all the time back home. I just thought I'd share a little something with you about being bored in KV.

My Spot

So, to get out of the house here and think, I head down to the work shop tent. The picture above is what I sit and look at, sometimes hours on end. Hey, there's nothing else to do. I just listen to my iPod and drink and think. I get a lot of thinking done here. Every now and again too, I'll get lucky and get to see a hot Marine walk by, usually on the way to the showers! LOL
And here in the above pic is what you'd see if you looked in while I was sitting and enjoying myself. ME! Propped up and just relaxing. It's freaking hot outside, but it's really not all that bad here, in the shade of the work shop tent.

So, today while sitting out there, I made up my mind about something. I'm not going to be sticking around here till September! I just can't. Sure it's going to be a lot of money that I'm basically throwing away or not taking, but I need to get home. Yes, it's pretty much the moves fault too. If they would have just kept me here, I would have been okay and lasted till September. I haven't a clue as to what I'm going to do when I return home, but I'll just take it one day at a time and see what happens.